So, I have decided to do Camp NaNoWriMo. After the success of winning NaNoWriMo in November last year, completing 50,000 words in thirty days for my first full length novel 1:58, I decided that it was time to do it again. Camp NaNoWriMo is the same as NaNoWriMo but there is more freedom, I can choose my own word count goal. However, I’m still sticking to 50,000 words. I can do it. I know I can.
I feel like I have lost a lot of motivation in the writing side of my life and the less I write, the more confidence I lose and I knew that it was time to transfer the novel that I have been planning for months in my head, down on paper. I have started to outline and plan a novel called The Last Letter. I have it planned up to chapter twelve and I am going to spend the last few days of June planning the rest to start the Camp NaNoWriMo on July the 1st.
I have planned many novels and many of them have never been written but this one, it just feels different. I can’t really explain why but this is the story that I really want to tell. Completing the challenge last year boosted my confidence enormously because I had never completed a longer piece of writing from start to finish. I had written poetry and short stories but never succeeded in writing an entire novel. Now I can say I have. And I am going to do it again.
I have so much time on my hands right now and I feel like I am wasting it. Day in and day out, I do nothing productive and it is only getting worse. I don’t want to be the writer that doesn’t write. I don’t want to be the woman who says she wants to be an author but never even tries to make the dream a reality. I want to write this novel.
The Last Letter is my chance to prove that I can write novels. It is easy for some writers to just write a 100,000 word novel from start to finish, start revising it, complete it and then send it to publishing houses. But what about the rest of us? The struggling writers that don’t always have the discipline to complete what we start? The writers that listen to the voice in their heads that says they are not good enough and believe it. The writers that know they can do it but have to convince themselves that they won’t fail.
I can manage 1,600 words a day. I have done it before. There are a few days in the month of July that I will be busy but I will have to work around my plans and make sure I get my daily word count. I know I can do this. I have done this before.
July has one extra day than November. I have thirty one days and 50,000 words to write and this time I am going to revise the novel and redraft it and get it ready to be published. No more messing around with ideas and wondering if I am good enough to be published. I need to start believing in myself. I can be an author, no, I will be an author and doing NaNoWriMo is just a stepping stone on my journey to achieving this dream.
I was given three weeks to complete all of my work and I thought this was enough time. I don’t think time management is one of my strongest skills but I decided to create a schedule but it just didn’t work out. I hated the restrictions I was setting myself and I wanted to do what work I felt like doing instead of doing what I wrote in a timetable. Now I have eight days to finish my 30 page script, my personal development plan, add more poems to my 15 poem portfolio, add 1000 words to my 2000 word short story and at least start my 3000 word report.
I feel like my head is going to explode! I know I have another week but I feel like I haven’t got enough time. It’s not like I haven’t done any work. I have been doing little bits of each piece every single day. Maybe this wasn’t enough. I just can’t wait to get all of these assignments in and then I have a few weeks left of this term then it’s summer! That thought scares me too because I have no plans or job as of yet. I am trying to complete all of this work in time but I don’t think I am going to do it. The good thing is they are not all due in the first day I go back so I have a little time.
The main focus is my 30 page script because that assignment is in first and so far I have 11 pages that I am happy with. I am very surprised with my patience with writing this script. I am out of my comfort zone but I am enjoying writing for this medium. It makes a refreshing change from short story writing,. something I am more familiar with. I really need to pull it together. I’m sure I can do it! Time is ticking.. I better start typing!