I haven’t been writing at all lately. I can’t even blame my lack of writing on writers block because I’m not even trying to write anything. I think the problem is that I have far too many ideas but I never pursue any of them. I have my journal which is full of ideas for short stories, poems, scripts and novels. My initial idea for the summer was to start the opening chapter for my dissertation. We only have to hand in 6,000 words but my aim was to get at least 10,000 words to work with when I got back to uni in October but I haven’t even started it and it’s now June.
I have no excuse really – it’s just laziness. I have my work experience three times a week but what about the other four days? I have the same ideas swirling around my head and I wake up in the morning thinking to myself – I will write today. I WILL! But I don’t. I find myself doing other things, pointless things like browsing the internet, listening to music and watching TV shows. It’s not completely pointless though. I have found a lot of my ideas recently from things I have watched, listened too and seen.
I want to be a writer and what I forget is the discipline that is required to do it. I’m not saying I need to make myself write. I’m saying that I need to write. I need put my ideas down pen to paper or type words on to a blank word document. Just something. Summer just makes me lazy. I complain when I am at university and have no time to write stories or novel chapters or poems but now I have all of these free time I’m still not doing it. Lets hope I find the motivation to do some writing soon.